[12/25] christmas day

[thebloodtraitor]

It's a strange day, Sirius thinks. Though far from his first Christmas spent with James, it's his first here in this city and his first with Kieren. He'd invited both to his flat for the holiday where he'd managed to Muggle his way through some semblance of a Christmas turkey and pudding and side dishes. He's still getting used to his new wand is the thing, Kell's blood lending a certain amount of volatility that he hadn't quite expected.

He'll get there, he knows. But it's better to work out the kinks later than risk ruining an entire Christmas meal. And it's not as though James has been any help without his wand. It's almost funny, he thinks, how useless they are without their magic. Lily would likely be delighted. And Remus, too.

But, if nothing else, he knows Kieren is more impressed that he left magic out of it entirely despite the headaches it may have afforded Sirius.

There are a good number of gifts sitting wrapped below the tree though Sirius, at least, is a bit more interested in polishing off the bottle of Muggle whiskey. It's impossible to fully ignore the utter lack of Lily and Harry and Remus, and Sirius knows Kieren is missing his own family desperately in this moment, but he thinks if only they drink a bit more, it'll be easier to not dwell. That's often his favoured way of coping, after all.

He's sat back in the sofa now, resting close to Kieren, forcing himself to not act any differently in James's presence though it's turning out to not be an easy thing at all.

"Shall we play a card game?" he suggests after knocking back another sip of whiskey and sitting up a bit straighter. "That's a delightfully Muggle thing to do, isn't it? Is there a special Christmas one?" he asks, looking to Kieren now for input.

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[roartonrisen]

Kieren's been both looking forward to this holiday and not. All that he could think about for weeks is his Mum's cooking and the crowns they would've worn and all the feast that he could have eaten without having to mime. Being human, it's incredible, but there are times when he feels so unhappy that he can't be home to be with his parents and be the son they want. Though, then he snaps out of it and remembers that he's always the son they want and thinking like that is what gets him in a cave with a razorblade and his wrists open.

Sirius' place is incredible and he feels honestly like it's a perfectly magical experience without using it, but the only problem with having James over in the midst of this is that it feels like they're right back to not telling a Potter about their relationship. "Unless you want me to invent something? I'm not really that much into cards. We always just sort of sat around listening to music," he admits, his gaze constantly sliding over to James whenever he starts drifting closer to Sirius.

Never mind that Kieren's gift for Sirius is still sitting under the tree, but given how personal it is, he's not daring to give it to him in James' presence. Not unless he thinks that it's safe to.